i'm 22 and i juz can't believe it..

ALHAMDULILLAH..today is 3rd October 2010..this date may means nothing to you..but for me it means the world..well back in 1988 this is the date when I first saw the world..the first time I saw my mama’s and abah’s faces..the first time I cried..well almost exclusively the words that begin with “the first”..yess it was the day I was born, somewhere in the corner of the labor room in Hospital Besar Kuala Terengganu..
Now it is 2010..22 years had passed..i’m a grownup..of course a cute one..hehehe..my parents raised me very well..they gave me everything a lil girl want in this world..

Hey guys..i'm 22 now..can you believe it??

ALHAMDULILLAH..today is 3rd October 2010..this date may means nothing to you..but for me it means the world..well back in 1988 this is the date when I first saw the world..the first time I saw my mama’s and abah’s faces..the first time I cried..well almost exclusively the words that begin with “the first”..yess it was the day I was born, somewhere in the corner of the labor room in Hospital Besar Kuala Terengganu..
Now it is 2010..22 years had passed..i’m a grownup..of course a cute one..hehehe..my parents raised me very well..they gave me everything a lil’ girl want in this whole world..and I was so lucky to have gorgeous friends like farahin, abby, maina, nenex, fatie, anih, ezi, iqa and many more..sorry dudes too many to be mention here..

Honestly, it’s nothing great to be 22..it juz that ur age increased by one year and still the commitment keep adding up..TEEEETTT..the answer is wrong..being 22 is actually a ‘bless’ that Allah had gave me..He still not giving up on me..giving me chances by chances to be a better person..He woke me up from my loonnngg sleep.. I realize that Allah love for me never fade..it juz me who being soo ignorance and taking things for granted..i hate myself for being such a loser..now it is time to for me to “wake up” and pay off what I’ve missed in the past 22 years.

I couldn’t thanks Allah more for sending me my two bestfrens, FARAHIN and ABBY..on the very first day that we met.. I was like “ouh these guys are way too goddess for me”…and I was totally out of their league.. But once again I was wrong..They were like “the bestestt” (I noe there is no such word..but who cares) friends you could ever asked. Whenever I have probs, they were the one that I will look for..we share joys, laughs, tears and everything the world can offer..They bit by bit change me into a better person..I know it’s hard to bear with someone like me..but they manage to wreck my ego..where no one succeed before..Ouh I juz love u guys..


Farahin and me kat kedai runcit Rahmath (pakcik kedai menjeling manja di sudut kedai)


Abby kat lab (konon nk nmpak tggi by standing on stool..tp ak saje wat dajal masukkan gmabr stool skalik..hehe sory b)

Before I lay my hands off the keyboard..I juz want to say THANK YOU frens for bear with me this whole time..thnx for the lil’ birthday surprise you gave me..(I have to admit, I did surprised)..thanx for allocating time to celebrate my birthday although I know you’ve been very busy..and those cute lil bear and adorable mirror plus the photo frame and the sweet birthday wishes plat..not forgetting the wonderful K*C…I never thought diz year we’re gonna have K*C..totally out of my head..hahha..we used to have kek pisang with our own decoration which I think very sweet..But u guys know that I don’t eat cake that much that is why this year we are having K*C..I loveeee u guys more than u can tell..Googol of thanx to ALLAH for letting me to have this wonderful life with a wonderful family and fabulous frens..InsyaALLAH I will make full use of it..and try to be a good muslim, good kid, and of course good friend..

For those whose wishing me happy birthday and praying me all the good stuff..THANX a lot frens..I definitely will pray the same for you guys..may ALLAH bless us all in this life and hereafter..aminnn

aku gila sebentar....

it's 3:45 am n yet my eyes still wide open~
piles of work waiting to be done~but none attract me~
aiyyo solehah~the same old excuses keep repeating all day long~"jap agi ar wat keje""30 min agi ar start""pas abis cite ni ar mula"
but when it's time to work~here comes facebook n all "made me happy+wasting time" stuffs...
arhhh ak tension ngn diri sdrik~~`
PLEASEEEE MAKE A CHANGE SOLEHAH!!!
I DO BEG MYSELF~IF I DON'T, WHO ELSE WOULD DO THAT FOR ME??
I'M GOING CRAZY-- YEAH MAYBE~~MAYBE AFTER I FINISH ALL THE STUFFS~NOT NOW NOT TOMORROW~YEAH CHEER UP!!mulakan dgn bismillah dan doa~~

~Near Death Experience...

salam~~

Sabtu (20/03/2010, 9.00 pm) - Aku involved in a car accident..ermm terbabas kat susur masuk highway Kuantan..As far as i can remember..malm tu ak ngan faizah on the way nk ke MS Garden Hotel kat kuantan..last2 minute Bopik kol cakap perlukan ak ngn Faizah utk event tu so..last minute jgk kitorg wat kputusan nk pegii..(da memg qada` dan qadar) so mlm tu kul 7.30 ++ pm kitorg gerak dr Paka heading towards Kuantan..memg agak lewat sbb tunggu Faizah smpai Paka dr Kelantan..die sampai jer trus gerak...cuaca plak gelap ditambah plak dgn hujan renyai2....bwk kete time tu xde la laju sbb krete memg bersesak2 kat jalan..cuti skolh la katekan..so steady jer la bawak..smpai cherating tu kitorg x tau samada nk masuk highway or amik jln biasa...jln highway tu memg gelap la da la hutan2 hujan tropika...disebabkan da lewat kitorg decide nk masuk highway~nmpak 2 3 bijik kete masuk highway kitorg pon follow...ermm bile da masuk highway memg laju jer ar kaki ni tekan pedal minyak~tp abis laju pon 100-120km/h jer..lebih x brani~~ati memg rase x best..tp pedal minyak tetap tekan...one thing yang aku plek sgt dalam kete tu memg aku ngn faizahh cakap secakap2 nyer..memg x brenti cakp..da la time tu maghrib..ak ade lalu dpn masjid..tnye faizah nk brenti solat x..then die ckp kite jama` je la kat hotel nanti..so aku pon ikut jer..satu silap besarr yg ak akn menyesal smpai bile2..



smpai kat susur nk masuk ke kuantan-KL ntah macam mane aku straight masuk lane ke KL spatut nyer ak amik kiri utk ke KUantan..faizah sound "solehh amik kiri"..ak pon tuka lane..broookkkkkkkk kete ak terbabas masuk lam longkang in between susur ke Kuantan-KL...~~bile da masuk longkang ak control stereng nk naik balik tp sbb tgh laju kete tu terbalik~~time tu tuhan jer ar tau~~memg ak ingt ma ngn abah + kawan2~~tkut x smpat nk mintak maaf..ak ngucap panjang2..faizah die cpat2 kluar ikut cermin tingkap tepii..ak plak time tu panik..cari button nk bukak seat belt x jumpe..ak berdoa kat Allah byk2..dpat jer bukak seat belt..nk unlock pintu plak x jmpe..time tu ak dgr faizah jerit"soleh cpat kluar..kete da berasap"..ak time tu memg ingt ak akan mati..klau kete meletupp...x kan ade entry ni..x kan bernafas da ak mlm ni..da ade majlis kenduri arwah malam ni...maaaa...abahh...ampunkan anakmu...alhamdulillahh ak dpat jgk unlock pintu dan kluar..



Less than 5 minutes kete dah byk brenti..tow truck pon da smpai..bnyk plak org yg offer nk tow kete msuk bengkel.siap bg biz card.ak time tu blurrr..x tau nk wat ape...aku kol bopik..sbb die pling hmpir..kol abah x dpt2..mase kjadian x de rase nk menangis langsung...memg kosong kpale..finally dpt kontek abah..bile dgr jer suara abah ak trus syahdu...ak memg nk dgr suara abah ngn ma jer..tetibe air mate melimpah2 kuar~~ak x leh nk ckp~~abah bile tau jer die trus nk dtg Kuantan..bimbang sbb ak x penah involve ngn mnde2 cmni..ak time tu memg nk peluk ma ngn abah jer...nk sujud kat kaki diorg nk mintak ampun...

30mins later bopik ngn herman smpai..pastu gi log report kat Balai POlis Beserah..Kete da kene tow..mase diorg nk tow kete tu sebak sgt..tgk kete yg ade rupe kure2 terlingkup..pastu nk btulkan balik kedudukan die tu yg wat ak sebak..da cam bangkaii...

So after log report..kitorg balik ke MS GArden sbb x tau nk tuju mane.Report plak ari Isnin baru leh release..Bopik ngn Herman memg baikkk sgt2...x tau nk balas jasa diorg macammane.diorg la tlg setel semua bnde..kul 1++ am ma ngn abah smpai kat Hotel..smpai2 jer diorg trus peluk cium aku~~ak terharu sgt...Ak sebak..abah ckp "da la..mnde nk jadi..da jgn sedih..selamat semua x pe la.."

Esok nyer diorg gi tgk kete kat bengkel n trus balik K.trg..ak plak stay kat Hotel..sbb nk tggu report..still blur~stiap kali tringat balik peristiwa smalam..mst sebak sbb ak pikir ak da memg xde pluang..tp Alhamdulillah Allah bagi pluang lagi utk aku..xde kecederaan truk..cume lebam2 skit..Aku bersyukur yang amat..x terungkap dgn kata2...

Peristiwa ni smpai mati pon ak x kan lupe~~Allah bagi peringatan kat aku sbb ak leka..alpa..lalai..sungguh besar ujian-Mu ya Allah..ak 'tersedar' dan mengucap panjang..ak bnyak berdosa..ak lalai..Ampunkan aku Ya Allah..mulai hari ni ak akan pastikan even ak dlm perjalanan, solat mesti diutamakan..tunaikan dulu yg wajib..ak terpikir klau la ajal ak malam tu..dgn belum solat..x sempat mintak maaf ngn parents + kawan2 + saudara mara..dgn amalan yg x cukup...aaaaa...ak x leh bayangkan...Sungguh besar hikmah dsebalik semua ni~~Ampunkan aku Ya Allah..

Tadi abah pm ak kat ym..time tu ak xde kat blik..bile bace msg abah..rase sedih+terharu+bersalah+etc+etc..ak paste kat bawah ni msg tu..walaupon ayat buku tp memg menusuk kalbu kaw2..


Assalamualaikum. Macammana dah ok tak? Janganlah sedih. Setiap yang hidup pasti diuji. Tak kira samada besar atau kecil. Hidup kita didunia adalah umpama berjalan dikawasan yang penuh duri. Setiap yang melaluinya pasti berhati-hati.Begitu dengan kita bila berada dijalan raya. Kita kena berhati-hati semasa memandu. Jangan ikut nafsu. ikut speed yang telah ditetapkan. Kita kena ingat apakah akan menimpa kita jika berlaku tayar pecah, jalan licin, haiwan melintas, orang melintas dan bermacam-macam lagi.Sebab tu abah bila memandu senantisa ingat perkara-perkara yang kemungkinan akan terjadi, biarlah orang lain bawa laju-laju. Bagi abah yang penting kita selamat sepanjang perjalanan dan selamat sampai. Janganlah kita jadikan keegoan kita menguasai nafsu kita. Kita kena ingat Allah .


Aku harap sgt2 dgn tragedi ni i'll change to a better person..doakan ak yer kawan2..
kepada housemate2 ku thnx for being such a good friends and take a good care of me..kpada my BFF, FARAHIN + ABBY + KAK NI + AMI + MAINA + FATIE thanx..for being very supportive and concern..BOPIK n HERMAN..u guys helped me alot..no words can express my gratitude...i wish i can do sumthing to repay ur good deeds..

~~bile perasaan malas menguasai diri~~

korang pernah x rase malas??haaa cepat jawab ngn ikhlas~~sape2 yang x pernah malas meh sini telinga~~ak nk tarik sepanjang pembaris pendekk 15cm..pandaii eh menipuu~mne ade orang x malas~~kalau para anbiyaa`,sahabat2,alim ulama` tu lain ar ..tp manusia biase macam aku memg x terlepas dr sifat malas..

mana datang nyer sifat malas ni??ntah tibe2 plak terfikir..ak rase malas ni semua sbb syaitan yang asyik bisik2 kat lobangg tlinge~~menghasut manusia menangguhkan2 keje..lepak2 dpn tv smbil berborak2 kosong..bergolek2 depan tv sambil makan biskut kering cicah air tea..bukak facebook..balas2 comment..usyar gambar kat fcebook..blogging time kerje juga salah satu hasutan syaitan..hahaha semua tu ak wat ok~~memg pemalas dasar pemalas punyer orang~~tp keje i siap taw nyah...heheh..jadi ibu2 yang sedang cari calon menantu~jangan risau..sbb saye memg sukeee wat kerja rumahhhh + memasak + memakan + dan kerja2 lain yang memerlukan ketahanan mental yang banyak dan ketahanan fizikal yang ciput~~hahaha

Erm crite pasal kerajinan plak..pagi tadi ak masuk site~~pegi tgk orang wat keje kat BOG Compressor(Boil of Gas)..selepas sejam dua bercanda di tepian pantai...bnyak la korang nyer bercanda~~klu nk kne backhand gune spanar saiz 50 try ar bercanda2..lepas tgk2 org wat keje..tanye2...angguk...tulis brang 2 3 mukasurat yang tulisan ak sdrik pon ak x paham...kitorang pon jalan kaki ar ke ofis balik..panass x sah cakap ar...panas "berderingg deringg"(base trg mariii)..da la jalan kaki~~basikal ade tp kunci plak ade org rembat...aii memg nasib x baik..tp ni baru panas dunia da kepoh2..klu panas akhirat ak x tau la cane..nauzubillah....

blik jer lunch kat cafe..baru nk rilek2 atas krusi empuk.. aiiii kene ajak masuk site lagi..siap kene panjat column yang tinggi kalah kot hantu raye..80 m ++..mak aii mengucap panjang aku ni~~nk tolak kang orang kate aku bodo sombong plak~~da la trainee pastu bengap plak..nti da x de org nk ajak masuk site..so ak follow jer la..
sampai2 kat gurun sahara (ni imaginasi ak sbb panas die memg cam kat gurun)..kitorang pon mula la misi memanjat..seb baik x jadi panjat column 402..naik deck jer..alhamdulillah..klu x memg terbakar ar kulit~balik2 umah jer adik2 ak order makanan,"mamakkkkkk mee gorengg basahh satuwww"..memg kene lempang ngn slipar jepun bijik2 ar nanti..wahahha


So tu je la story arini~~da kat kul 5..nk solat2 dlu pastu packing..x sabar nk balik umah..nk paw bantal abby yang empuk bersarungkan kain kotak2 merah persis baju tadika kemas...memg bantal feveret ak~~nk kne cpat ni~~nti nk kne bersaing plak ngn faizah nk rebut bntal abby~~heheh..k till then..salam..

ni haa makcik nk criter...

salam...tjuk post cam hapeee je kan??saje..nk bagi up sikit mood pagi2 ni..
da lame x update blog ni~~byk reason nape x terupdate..later kite cter..anyway skrang kat ofis..sementara tggu waktu nk balik~ade baik nyer update blog yg berkurun giler x tgk ni~~keje bertambun agi x siap tp dsebabkan mood nk balik tu lagi power dr mood nk wat keje so "kite enjoyy"(sambil wat gaye cam nk kne lempang ngn satu rim kertas A4 double A) ...

belum sempat ak mengecapii hidup bahagia..dpt plak keje baru~~since 2 bulan ak kat sini bleh kate keje ak more on analyze buku2 yg klu skali tgk cam rupe batu bepang~~tp seb baik dlm softcopy bleh ar gak layan2 facebook~~5 minit tgk buku..stgh jam tgk facebook...tgk2 gmbar org pastu gelak sensorang..memg terseksa bile terpakse gelak secare "keraskan" muke..memg x ramai yang bleh wat cmni..mst org ingt ak tgh meroyan sbb gelak sorang2..da la buruk..hahah..klu ade farahin bleh gak gelak ngn die..ouh i miss her damn much...so far banyk yg bleh blajar eventhough the work kind of boring~~bnyk sgt input sampai otak x leh nk trime~~x per..xper sedut pelan2 kate mak aku time makan siput sedut masak gulai lemak~~

This week aku kene involve ngn projek SERP(Specific Equipment Reliability Plan)which i did not have clear understanding on the project itself..luckily laa abi, ayie ngn bopik in the same team with me~klu x memg ak sengeh je ar time engineer bagi task..pastu aku wat2 tuli~~meh nk explain skit pasal projek ni secare hentam kromo nyer..erm this project is basically pasal nk produce "surat branak" (x pon ic/passport)for each equipment..utk each equipment kitorang kene wat criticallity analysis~criticallity analisis ni cam kite nk tentukan bile equipment ni nk mampos (tu scre kasarnyer)..so bile da tau mane2 equipment yg da nazak so kite bleh la prioritize kan equipment for mitigation process or inspection..nk come out dgn mnde alah ni kite kne ade FMEA(failure mode n effect analysis), P-RBI (Petronas Risk Based Analysis), Inspection Plan, CMP (corrosion monitoring Plan), PM (Preventive Maintainance)dan mcam2 agi ar~~


Ni bukan aku..

Bnyak kan?~ak yang taip ni pon pening kpale..sahkan korang..so mlas cakp banyak mnde ni memg complicated..nmpak jer senang..tp tipuu seme tu..menci tauu..hahaha..jadi x nk peningkan kpale ak wat bodo jer dulu~~end of story...k ar nk sambung wat keje dulu~bos da jeling2 manje kat aku~~hahaha till then daa~~

Adventure la sangat aku ni ~~

salam~~

Smalm ari Jumaat~aku da balik dr utp~memg kelam kabut giler ar smalm~~dgn barang2 yg bertimbun macam gunung kinabatangan~erkkk i mean gunung kinabalu...dgn offer letter x amik lagi kat siiu etc etc etc...seb baik ade kawan2 yg berhati mulia tlg angkat barang2 aku~diorg seme geleng kpale~~cam pindah rumah pon ade~~ak pon plek camane barang2 ak leh jadik byk~rase2 nyer da wat balik da sparuh time cuti aritu~~hehehe..sbb ak x leh nk tido mlm ni so ak akan bercrite panjang~~

hurm pagi jumaat yg hening dan sejuk2 kuku kaki tu, ak da bgn seawal 10.30am(standard weekend ok~pas subuh baru tido~kire awal la tu kan..kan..heheh)bgn2 jer cek fon ade msg from abah~cakap da ade kat gua musang~means dalam 3 jam agi smpai ar utp~aaaa aku da gelabah scare berkalar da~dgn barang nyer tak abis packing lagi~tak tau nk start cane..tp ak gagahkan jugak mengemas brang2..klu tak ak takkan korang plak kan nk tlg kemas..

so da kemas2 ak campak2 la kat luar~~berlonggok2~ak tgk pon ak pening~heheheh..seb baik la ak ade kawan2 yg berhati mulia dan juge penyabar~~diorang la tlg angkat barang2 ak~mekasih sgt2~nati dtg ar kerteh ak banjer korang~hehehe..klu nk arapkan ak yg x penyabar ni ak baling jer dr tingkat satu tu trus masuk bonet kete~~yg part klaka nyer time ak ngn abby tgh angkut kotak besar tetibe bocor~~woooshhh(ak reke jer bunyi camni)berteraburrr brang2 ak jatuh~hahahahaha ak tgk abby pastu ak gelak~abby tnye ak"leh mu saletip dok kotok mu ni??"ak pon ngn naif jer jawab.."ak lipat2 jer kotok tu sbb farahin kate klu lipat lagi kukuh dr saletip"hahaha..
abby pon "brok brekk brokkk brekkkk...mu ni soleh..brok brek brokk brekk...aiiii geramm ak ngn mu nii..brokk brekk brok brekkk(ni part abby berleter tp ak lupe die ckp per sbb byk sgt die ckp..hahahah)dan2 die pakse ak naik atas amik saletip ngn gunting die~~sbenar nyer ak da saletip da kotak tu~tp ak gune saletip yg 30sen satu tu~ak x bgtau abby tkut die bleter smpai esok pagi..hahaha..so abby la yg saletip kan kotak ak~susun balik barang2 ak~tlg angkat kotak ak smpai kat kete~~mekasih sgt abby~sayam mu sangat2~~hehehehe..

After jumaat abah ngn abg da smpai tercokoh dpn blok ak~ak plak tak siap agi~kelam kabut aku..barang2 kawan2 ak da setel da masukkan lam kete~tggl ak jer lom siap~oppss lupe nk bgtau~abah dtg ngn kete kawan die~sbb kete unser kitorg masuk bengkel eksiden..kete myvi plak da sah2 x muat nk sumbat seme barang ak~cmpur plak ade anak kawan abah ak plak nk tumpang~so abah tukar la kete ngn bapak die jap~bawak la naza citra which there is another exciting story about to tell u guys later...

so after da setel pasal barang2 ak pon gi la submit kunci kat ofis cik yusri, pastu gi siiu nk amik offer letter..tp hampeh~offer letter lom sain lagi~~chaiittt pooodahh~ ape punye lambat wat keje...smggu nk gi intern offer letter pon lom siap agi~ermm ak pon suh akak tu email kan jer kat ak~mlas nk tgu pos2...x dpt jgk ak x tau laa~~

after da setel seme bnde kitorg pon heading to simpang pulai~means lalu ikut cameron highland~means dpt beli strawberry~means yeayy~~hehhehe..so far jln x de teruk sgt~~so da mkn2 brenti solat kat gua musang~which reminds me of one of my friend :P...alhamdulillah kitorg pon proceed~ujan x brenti2 turun..memg agak bahaye jln waktu tu~dgn jalan yg da start mencabar~tgh2 ak syok tido walaupon cam naik kete kuda ak dgr adik ak kat blakang tibe2 menjerit...hahaha rupe2nyer beg ak jatuh atas muke die tgh2 die syok tido..ak wat bodo jer smbung tido balik sbb ak tau klu ak tnye mst kne bambu ngn die..hahaha~fuhh teruk sgt~~lubang2 tajam dan dalam giler~kalau naik kancil sure tenggelam..hahaha hiperbola ak jer nih~memg menduga skill memandu~tp apakan daya~malang x berbau cakap org melayu~~kalau berbau best gak kan~~lagik2 klu bau cam stawberry ker..erkk k back to story..abah terlanggar(ker termasuk??) satu lobang yg agak tajam and menyebabkan tayar pecah~~

well this is not the first time ak experience tayar pecah(fes time ngn abby farahin n leeya,kete abby masuk longkang dpn greentown mall..hahaha)~tp diz time berbeza skit
sbb kejadian ni berlaku kat felda aring gua musang~bkn dpn mall yer..xde lampu!!gelap gelita.ujan pon lebat.kete lalu lalang pon x byk~ak pon berdoa mintak la ade org baik ati lalu~alhamdulillah~x smapi 5 min ade hilux brenti~rupe2 nyer org kampung ak jgk~syukur x terkire ak ni~~n kerje2 menukar tayar pon bermula~masalah demi masalah plak dtg~pencarian tayar spare..punye la susah nk bukak boot yg simpan tayar spare~bkn kete sdrik so susah skit~dgn torchlight xde~nk cari jek ngn jig yg x tau tmpat letak kat mane...ai memg btul2 mencabar~basah kuyup ak kat luar~dgn barang2 terpakse dikuarkan sbb nk amik tayar~kotak2 yg susah payah abby saletip pagi tadi dgn skelip mate jer jadi lembik~aku sgt frust~bantal2 ak pon basah kuyup..ak rase cam nk payungkan jer bantal2 kesayangan ak tu~tp kang x pasal2 kene spanar ngn abah ak.hahaha..so da tukar tayar seme~pakcik tadi offer nk bawak barang ak sparuh~ak x leh lupe ayat first die cakp mase tgk barang2 lam kete citra tu~"ya Allah ni barang satu bas cane bleh muat niii"..hahahhaha..ak senyap jer sbb klu die tau tu brang ak sorang mst die lagi mengucap panjang..hahahah

so ak pon angkut la seme barang2 ak ngn pasrah masuk blakang hilux die~~abis lencun~ak sedih jer tgk barang2 ak diperlakukan sebegitu..tp apekan daye~~hurmm so sambung balik perjalanan yg tergendala td tp dgn speed yg amat2 la slow~ 50 - 60km/h..alhamdulilah slamat smpai jgk umah kul 12.30am..time kasih byk2 kat pakcik yg baik hati sudi tlg kitorg~smoge dimurahkan rezeki oleh Allah...dan syukur yg x terhingga kehadrat ilahi sbb dipermudahkan urusan~ALHAMDULILLAH~~bg yg akan drive balik kampung masing2, jgn lupe pastikan